Last night’s ep was pretty great, though it didn’t raise too many questions except…could B&B be any more awesome? Haha, but since we’ve spent many other hours discussing that very thing and will probably discuss it even more, here’s something else we should analyze: Who is more vulnerable right now: Booth or Brennan?
I assume that the immediate gut reaction to this will be … are you kidding me, of course, it’s Brennan! But, after The Bones That Weren’t, I’m thinking that Booth might be just as vulnerable. Let me explain myself, and then you can let me know, of the two partners, who you think is more vulnerable.
I think so far this season we’ve seen a really vulnerable Brennan, right? One who is learning how to deal with the consequences of her decision in the 100th. I think she desperately wants to make Booth happy and now has to watch someone else try and make him happy instead… that alone has to make her very vulnerable. So, those that immediately answer Brennan, I can totally understand.
But –and I hope I can explain myself with some measure of coherency here— I think Booth might be just as, if not more, vulnerable right now. And I think the reason is this: he’s trying to move on, he’s trying to be happy, but he knows, he knows that it’s never going to be exactly right. He’s settling and he knows it and I think it’s gotta be so painful to know that real, ecstatic, wanna-smile-all- the-time happiness is going to be forever out of his reach. Of course, you and I know that it’s not really out of reach, that Brennan feels the same way, but he doesn’t know that.
Watching The Bones that Weren’t, you know when I thought Booth was the most genuinely happy that I’ve seen him all season?…when he was asking Brennan to guess about which woman was the murderer (C’mon, guess, guess, guess!). And everything else—the candlelight dinner, the I’ll miss you—all seemed like a desperate attempt to reassure himself that he IS happy. When he said, how did I get so lucky, I swear it actually broke my heart a little because I could practically see him thinking, I am lucky, I am lucky, I am lucky, like a tiny little mantra. He’s trying very, very hard and I, for one, think that makes him quite vulnerable. Because think about this, if he can’t convince himself that he’s happy, if he admits— even to himself— that he can’t really be happy without Brennan, then he’s resigning himself to being unhappy forever, right? As far as he knows, Brennan doesn’t want anything more than to be his partner and friend and he’s trying to accept it and he’s trying to find some measure of contentment. But you tell me, if he knows deep down that it’s all a façade, then how vulnerable does that leave him?
What do we think? Am I reaching? Am I seeing something that isn’t there? Is Brennan really the only vulnerable one left in this partnership? Or is it possible that Booth, who himself has admitted it, knows that settling for second best doesn’t cut it?