I know what it’s like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can’t.
Okay, before we get started today, I just want to mention two things.
1.) Bones Theory readers are smart. Like…really smart. Everyone here is so nice also. Nice and funny and smart. I’m just amazed at it every single day. Thank you, thank you, thank you each one, for sharing your heart AND YOUR BRAIN here at BT. I find it very inspiring. To those who have commented to me privately that you never feel like you have anything to add to the comments…to that, I say…bring it on! Don’t worry about that! What you have to offer…it’s you! We want to hear it; I promise. Even if you agree with each person…well, heck, we want to hear that too. Also, likewise, to those of you who do not speak English as your first or ‘native’ language, please do not apologize for your English. I think it’s wonderful to hear from BONES fans from all over the world, and I guarantee that your English is 1000 times better than my attempt to speak your language. I promise, promise, promise.
Okay, having said all of that, my next point is just a bit snarky, though it might not even apply to BT readers/ writers/ commenters at all, and that is this.
2.) I do love everyone; I promise. But I was just thinking the other day that one nice thing about this season is that people are generally being a LOT nicer toward Brennan, and I find that very refreshing. I remember the days where she was called cold and insensitive toward Booth’s (seemingly) overt advances of love and devotion. When he mentioned love; she’d scoff and ridicule at times (not always, but sometimes). When he says he gets nervous when the two of them are around super smart people, she says not to worry, because she knows how stupid he is. Haha, I loved that, in season four, but Brennan got a lot of heat for that, for not falling into Booth’s completely available arms. This isn’t a reprimand or ANYTHING like that; like I said before, I think BT readers and commenters have got it going on in the rational department; I’m just saying I think it’s always worth making an effort to sort of extend as much good grace toward Booth as we are extending toward Brennan this season. Does that make sense?
Okay, off my high horse now, and back down onto the ground. And the weather is nice down here and perfect for talking about our fave lady, Dr. Temperance Brennan. Specifically, we’ll talk about her in the context of ‘eventually’ and ‘everything’. We’ll talk about Booth too, probably on Wednesday, but for today, it’s Brennan. Let’s do this thing!
Is it greedy to want to see even MORE about Brennan before she met Booth? Don’t get me wrong; I’m very thankful to that pre-pilot canon peek we got into B&B in the 100th episode. But I find that it also raises some questions. She wanted to get out of the lab; we can see that by the pilot. And she DID get out of the lab, on her expeditions and digs, etc. But what do you think about all of that…was she feeling edgy before she met Booth? Or was she fairly satisfied with her life, both personally and professionally? Is Booth the cause or the effect, do you think?
So then, that raises the question…who is the real Temperance Brennan?
Not that any of us can maybe say who the real ‘us’ is. And it can change over time. But I sort of wonder about Brennan. We have somewhat of an idea what she was like when she was 17, 22 maybe, etc. But what about when she was 13? What about when she certainly would have her own personality, but not any issues of abandonment? In her memories, she remembers her family very fondly.
The picture that is in the file she gives to Booth (in season one) is very sweet, very optimistic. Right?
Does that girl still exist? What is Brennan optimistic about?
How does that girl stay optimistic?
I think this part of Brennan is how she and Angela are friends. Brennan can recognize beauty…it just might be in ways that are different than other people. She sees beauty in 2+2=4; she sees beauty in the circulatory system, and she is amazed by Angela’s work in the lab. Angela helps her to keep in mind that it’s also important to share that beauty…whether it’s a gorgeous sunset with someone you care about or something else. Brennan wants to experience those things.
Right? So then…what is it that sort of puts her on edge about it, though? Is it only when Max is involved? Remember in season four, The Bone that Blew, when Max is around, teaching the children at the lab?
MAX: Science Squad, meet my daughter. The world famous anthropologist, Temperance BRENNAN: . Of course, I taught her everything she knows.
BRENNAN: Actually, I went to college. I have multiple degrees.
MAX: Well, tell the uh, kids a little something about refraction.
BRENNAN: Snell’s Law states that the angle of incidence is related to the angle of refraction, where V equals the wave velocities through the respective media and N equals…
MAX: Nifty, that’s very nifty. But wha-what was your favorite example when you were a kid?
CHILD: Rainbows! I love rainbows!
MAX: Yeah, rainbows. She used to make me drive her all the way across town, the other side of the rainbow. She didn’t believe that light came out of the back of a raindrop. Yeah. So, are there any questions for our, uh, scientist?
Later on in that episode, Brennan and Max are talking and Sweets joins them, making it very clear why HE thinks Brennan doesn’t want Max to work at the Jeffersonian:
SWEETS: Well, at the time you abandoned your daughter, 15 years ago, you were a well-regarded science teacher. Now…here you are, basically in the same situation. And subconsciously, she doesn’t want to risk feeling that sense of abandonment and bereavement again.
MAX: Boy, that is such a load of crap. (to BRENNAN) You are far too rational for that.
What do you think about all of this? Can you imagine a scenario in which Brennan, feeling disappointed after a junior high school dance or something, comes home. Max and Christine notice, and Max tells her “Don’t worry about it baby; you’re far too rational for that.” At which point Brennan nods and understands and sees that being rational is the key to not getting hurt at junior high dances. Christine may not agree, but she might not say anything.
I’m being COMPLETELY fictional, which would annoy Brennan to the maximum…but I just wonder what you think. What parts of the Brennan that we see now…what parts of those are who she has always been? Has she always been curious? Has she always been determined? Has she always been not quite up to date on current events past the Industrial Revolution (haha! Remember when she told Booth that in episode 100? SO FUNNY!). Has she always (like our original quote) not quite been able to fit in? Because of her brain, her circumstances, her vocabulary, her curiosity?
What about this Brennan?
There are so many MORE examples of her wearing her metaphorical heart on her sleeve, whether she’s wearing a Jeffersonian lab coat or not. In fact, it would take another watch through all of the episodes, but there might be MORE of those moments than moments in which she uses rationality as a shield. What do you think?
Not to boil HER down to an anthropological inevitability, but if she hadn’t met Booth…where would she be? Would she have had the journey she’s had without him? Okay, okay…obviously not the exact same journey, but you know what I mean. Was she already itching to get out of the lab before she met him? If so, does that change her ‘eventually’?
She has faced pain and hardship and she’s beautiful in her rationality at times. But…what’s the end result? What’s the eventually? And what does ‘everything’ entail for her? Has that definition changed since the pilot episode, or was it always there…just waiting to be unlocked?
I don’t know for sure; I’m curious to know what you think. Did she always find pleasure in simple jokes (Hay…is for horses!)? Did she just in the most recent years consider wanting a child, or just now confess it? Did she only fantasize about a life with Booth when she was in Maluku, or is that something that’s been happening since this?
We’re talking about Brennan here…her innate desires and wishes, but I think Booth plays a big part in that as well. Why did she write about a single life shared? I remember after the season four finale, I felt concern and uneasiness at the idea that there would or could ever be a situation in which Brennan had to ask Booth to confirm HIS love for her? In what universe, right? But now, I can see that we’re headed in that direction (another grudging salute to End in the Beginning! Ha…by the end of this journey, I’ll probably love that freaking episode or something!)…
Is Brennan’s eventually the confidence she has in her own love for Booth? Is that her journey? To love and be loved? She can still be herself, still love Booth and love science at the same time, right? Can she be in love and rational at the same time. This is part of her conclusion…come on, it’s gotta be, right? She’s not going to find God and get married; I don’t think that would be in character at all. So there has to be some sort of ‘eventually’ in store for her.
What is that? What is her everything, and what is her eventually? AND to throw another wrench into it…do you think she’s already hit ‘eventually’? Has Booth? Were their confessions in the 100th and DitP their ‘eventually’ moments? The OTHER one just wasn’t ready at the right time?
Thoughts from you?
Peace, Love & Bones