Good morning (if it’s even still morning where you live!)
One thing I’ve always associated with love, when it comes to Booth, is hope. He’s not the only one like that; a lot of us can attribute both of those things together. But with Rebecca, I always thought it was that he hoped he was enough–that he was a good enough father, good enough that she would want him enough, that he was enough to be able to ‘make’ it work.
And with Hannah, there was also hope, but maybe a different kind. He hoped he was over Brennan. He hoped he could love again. He hoped he could compartmentalize enough to love one woman and be partners with another. He hoped, again, that he could make it work.
With Brennan, I think the hope was there too (and haha, you are all thinking…why is she still talking about hope?? Well, I’m getting there, I’m getting there!), but there was less of the need to make it work.
For me, that shows that where Brennan is concerned (compared to the other two), he’s the most vulnerable. On the surface, it doesn’t seem like that would be the case. After all, both of those other two women have heard “I love you” from him. Both have seen him naked (okay, okay…Brennan has too, but not in the same way. Not in an “I want you to see me naked, so here I am…naked” kind of way), both have a part of him that Brennan does not yet. Brennan has part of him that the others don’t (and won’t ever) have of him either, of course. And I think part of THAT part that Brennan has is the ‘strong’ love.
Again on the surface, it doesn’t seem to line up. How does Brennan have the ‘strong’ love if Booth was using almost all of his strength toward loving Hannah, and presumably Rebecca (at one point)?
Well, what if Booth was an impervious substance, but when Brennan, he’s a strong substance? Did Booth need some imperviousness when it came to Brennan, do you think? Was he too malleable? Too penetrable? I kind of think…yes.
The way I see it, after their conversation in his apartment…
…Booth was saying to Brennan that he wanted to love her because of love. That he didn’t want to love her because it was the right thing to do, that he didn’t want to love her to get over being hurt or angry or for any of those reasons, but that he wanted to love because of love.
Not that hope is a bad thing, and I sort of love that they both are on the ‘hope and patience’ train, bound for eventually-land. 🙂
I just think Booth has always attributed love to something he had to earn and then work really hard to maintain/keep. And while there is certainly some merit to the working hard part of it, I think he’s learning that he’s lovable…just as he is (not to get all Bridget Jonesy on us!).
For Brennan, she’s been more of the type to feel she doesn’t necessarily believe in love, or the ‘power’ of it. It’s like when people argue for the existence of God and say that though we can’t see him, we can see the effects of him, like we can’t see the wind, but can feel the effects of the wind. Brennan is beginning to feel and see the effects of love, and all kinds, like Rynogeny talked about in her Love post. She also has mentioned a few times that she expects/expected to be alone. She’s one of those people who doesn’t get to be in a family, she tells Booth in season two. Or she’s just one of those people who’s alone, she also tells him after a particularly bad date. And this season, we see her struggling with that. She was frustrated when people attributed alone-ness with loneliness, and she insisted they are not the same thing. She told Angela that she was alone, and it was…just as she expected.
But, when she’s talking with Booth in his apartment, it’s almost as if she is alone with him in her alone-ness. I’m on a roll with things that don’t make sense, haha, but hear me out.
She’s still not saying “I deserve to be loved by Booth because of ___________ or ___________” or anything that she has ‘done’. She’s being deliberate, and she will likely always be deliberate. But she’s deliberately hanging back and also deliberately making herself known. It’s not defiant; it’s deliberate.
I’m sort of getting myself into a thought tangle here, so I’m going to stop and just say this: Though I believe Booth and Brennan have loved one another, in various stages and degrees, for many years, for the first time, they are actually on the same page, love-wise. And it’s a page that is not free from the work that comes with commitment, but is free from striving, which both attributed to love.
It’s sort of free from hope as well. Not that they can’t wish for good things to happen, and they both did when they wrote down their ‘dates’, but it’s free from unrealistic expectations disguised as hope, I guess.
Thoughts from you?
I’ll see you tomorrow with the scene study from The *a* in the **** with Booth in the ***** p*** ***r*!! WOOOOO!!!!
Peace, Love & Bones